And finally:

September 30th, 2006

So my first week back at university has been alright. I saw a few faces I’d missed over summer, and got back some order to my life. I’ve spent all summer doing absolutely nothing, so to have a regular timetable has been good for me in terms of sorting my life out. My classes are as follows:

Civil War & Restoration Literature
This module is boring. I only chose it because we’ll read John Milton’s Paradise Lost, which I read this summer. Unfortunately, two of the books on the module are plays. I like studying plays, but in the past I’ve read them in groups with my classes, where everyone assumes a part and we read it that way. With these, I’ll be reading them on my own, which will be a bit more difficult. The two lectures we’ve had so far have been boring, I couldn’t stay focused even with the whole “start of a new year” novelty. Not got high hopes for this one.

Medieval Renascence
(Nope, I didn’t spell that wrong). This one is good. My personal tutor is amazing, he’s a pretty old fella but he’s hilarious. He criticised the School of English right away, saying how we spend too much time looking for “themes” or just reading 500 page novels every week, and forget to look at the detail. In his seminar we spent an hour looking at one sentence of Chaucer (admittedly, it was 18 lines, but still). I like this module.

Narratives of Witchcraft & Magic
This module is cool. I like the people doing it, and the teacher is cool too, very dry and interesting. We’re looking at a chapter of Harry Potter next week (in book #1) in relation to the topic. We’ve also looked at some historical accounts of witchcraft and anti-magic (”diabolism”) laws. It’s all very interesting.

That’s it for now. This week I got myself involved in the student newspaper. It’s pretty good, but they really need to proofread it better. The first issue was loaded with ads to get people to come along and join the staff, and one contained the word “cheif” (sic). Other headlines/articles had pretty poor misuse of apostrophes, and pretty cheesy typos. I’m completely anal about spelling & grammar; this is why I’m an English student, but they need to improve it.

Anyway, I spoke to the Features editor and the Music team, and suggested some articles I wanted to write. They liked the ideas and they’re gonna suggest them to the editor. Looking at the office there and the concept, I’d love to edit the student paper at some point. Tomorrow the world..

I have a job interview Monday! I felt great when I emailed them and they called me sounding pretty damn impressed, if I may say so myself. Here’s the position:

http://www.i-to-i.com/Home.aspx?tabindex=0&tabid=76&subtabindex=3&subtabid=380#ime

If reading that is too much, it’s basically web design. If I get the job, and get to write for the paper, I’ll be a really happy guy. Also, my new band up here is due to actually get off the ground. If ALL THREE things work out, and my luck is up, who knows, I might even find a girl! One step at a time..

Thoughts & Musings

September 30th, 2006
Since I last wrote properly, I turned 20. Not really a big deal in the scheme of things, but it’s odd. I don’t feel different (not that birthdays ever do make any overnight changes, but still), despite having left behind the “difficult teenage years”. I feel a little sad really, they’re supposed to be among the best years of your life, and yet I don’t see myself looking back on them that way in years to come. I guess the optimist in me (there’s one in here somewhere) is saying to look to the future and start living the life I want to live. We’ll see if adulthood changes things.My birthday itself was good, no huge thing, as is usually the case with me. I went back home to Nottingham for the weekend to see family and friends. I’d already gotten a Gamecube and some games from my sisters before I moved into my new place in Leeds, but they got me some HMV vouchers and a huge cheesecake from The Cheesecake Shop (I’m a big fan of this king of desserts). My dad gave me money and mum had gotten me two tickets (one for my Dad, really) to see the Bootleg Beatles play in Nottingham in December, which was completely unexpected but cool. She also got me some books.We went out for a meal then, at the Springwater, the Chinese restaurant I used to work at. We’d been there about half an hour when out of the blue, Nathan and his family walked past. Not only is Nathan one of my best friends, but he was the person I used to work at the restaurant with.. too many co-incidences. We chatted for a bit even though I’d be seeing him the next night at a little party my friend Rich was having for me.

So the next night I ended up at Rich’s. We went to Asda to pick up some snacks and then headed back to his place to just chill playing some games and hanging out. The ever-fantastic Joe showed up, and reminded me how much I’d missed him. I hadn’t seen him in a good few months and the whole thing definitely wouldn’t have been half as cool if he hadn’t been there, and I’m not just saying that because I know he’ll read this.

The guys had all got me presents, which were really awesome. Susie, Rich’s girlfriend, had gotten me this awesome little book she picked up at the John Lennon museum in Japan where she had been. It’s quotes from his songs, with the Japanese and then the English, all bound in this special soft paper. I didn’t even expect anything from her so I was very touched. Sarah got me book tokens which I exchanged for Bill Bryson’s “A Walk In The Woods” and Frank McCourt’s “Teacher Man”, and Rich got me a PC game, Command and Conquer Generals, an awesome game that we’d talked about buying so we could play online when I was away in Leeds. Finally, Nathan gave me a mystifying rolled up tube, which I unwrapped to discover an absolutely awesome manga-style drawing of my band, done by Nathan over 4 days. It blew me away, so much effort must have gone into it. We’ve never really been huge on presents, so to see something he’d clearly spent a lot of time on really meant a lot. The drawing itself is awesome, it’s very flattering to all of us, we look about 100 times cooler, slimmer, muscular and badass than in real life, but it’s really cool, he has me wearing an AFI shirt that I own, and even my shoes and jeans. I’ll get a photo of it (it’s framed on my wall) so you can all appreciate his awesomeness.

The night took a turn for the worse after that, though. Me and Joe were sharing a double futon downstairs since bedspace was limited. Before everyone left us to sleep, there were tons of jokes about me and Joe fucking, which Joe helpfully exacerbated by climbing on top of me and humping wildly. After more jokes about us having a gay experience at night, they left us. We just lay and chatted in the dark for a bit until Joe left to go and smoke with Thom and some other people who’d just got back from a night out somewhere. This was when the fun started for me.

Thom (the singer in my band, he’s gay) had a friend over from Ireland. At about 2am, he got into the bed with me. I was half asleep and thought it was Joe, until he shook me and I looked round, right into the close-up face of a drunken, sweaty-smelling Irishman. Here’s a transcript, for ease of reading/mocking:

Him: Hey, mfffffggghhhhh, youuuuuu alriiiiiiiight?
Me: Whoa! Uh, oh, yeah man. *makes obvious “going-back-to-sleep” gesture*
Him: Cool, fsdkhfselksffs6rh… *shakes my shoulder* Hey, roll over a bit, we can cuddle *indicates to the side so I should lie with my back facing him*
Me: *trying to keep calm* I’m alright thanks, I just wanna sleep, seriously. *goes back to faux sleep*
- five minutes later -
Him: Hey, fssfdsdffsdfsdfsdfsddssdsdsdrrrrrrrr *starts to stroke me under the covers on my chest, working slowly down*
Me: *pushing his hand away* Leave it, man, I’m not interested. I just want to sleep.
Him: Okay, okay.
- He begins to do what I can only describe as “chewing his teeth”. Imagine a loose tooth was rolling around his mouth and he was biting it and rattling it around. He was also making eating sounds with his lips. Add to this an overpowering smell of stale beer and sweat being directed almost directly into my face from him as he sleeps -
Me: *tries vainly to fall asleep; fails*

After he laid his hand on my shoulder again, I gave up and just got out of the bed and moved my cover onto the couch and slept there. The couch was a good foot or two shorter than me, which made for one of the least comfortable night’s sleep ever, but it was better than rejecting a wasted dude. He still spoke to me, first asking me to come back, then ominously asking if I’d “ever been to Galway”. I hoped this wasn’t some gay euphemism.
In the morning I told Thom and asked him worriedly if the guy was actually gay. I’d rather have had a gay guy come onto me than a straight one thinking I was a girl, admittedly a girl who’d really let herself go. To my relief, he was actually homosexual. He was also high on several Class A drugs, not to mention drunk, and had no recollection of the incident in the morning. I told Thom not to tell him.

When I woke up, I felt absolutely awful, and not for the above reasons. I was sick after drinking some fresh orange juice, and felt an awful stomach cramp. This didn’t subside for a whole week afterwards, which, put bluntly, saw me spending most of my waking hours either writhing on my bed in pain, sleeping and having the weirdest, trippiest dreams, or sitting in the bathroom wishing I was anywhere else. Not a fun week.

A few weeks ago I ended up going out alone just to kill the boredom. Everyone else was at work (or in Hayley’s case, out with her friends) and after texting a few people to ask if they wanted to see a movie, I just went on my own. I saw Little Miss Sunshine and quite enjoyed the solitary experience. It beats sitting around in the house waiting for life to happen., anyway.
My student loan arrived in my bank account a few days ago, which was a happy day. I went out and picked up the books for the first semester of university, a sweet £100, and that’s only half of the ones I have to buy. Damn English degree. University itself begins tomorrow; I feel I should be preparing myself for it better than sitting online typing long diatribes that about 4 people will read, but such is my life.

I think this year (as in my 20th year, and my second year of university) is going to be good. The last few years have sucked, I got rejected from tons of universities, had my parents split up, and just didn’t achieve any of the things I wanted. I’m thinking positive and things are gonna get better. Can’t hold me down!

Lee’s Birthday

September 30th, 2006

We went out a few weeks ago for Lee’s (my housemate) birthday. He beat me to 20 by 4 days. Here’s some of the photos from the night:

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House tour!

September 30th, 2006

Without further ado, here’s the tour of my new house in Leeds!

Be warned, there’s 47 pictures under the link below. I compressed them as much as I could so you could still see the detail but not wait forever to see them, so enjoy! Also, don’t judge too harshly! It’s not a palace but living with friends is where the enjoyment comes from, much more so than having a great place.

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Backtrack!

August 10th, 2006
It’s been a while! Without any furhter ado, let’s jump in!
I got my university results for the first year. Here’s my overall scores:
Semester 1 (September 2005 - February 2006)

  • Reading Prose: 62
  • Language, Text and Context: 63

Semester 2 (February 2006 - June 2006)

  • Reading Poetry: 62
  • Exploring Medieval Literature: 68

Elective Modules (taken to fill up credits outside the School of English)

  • Beginning Writing: 63
  • Introduction to Programming: 84 (A First!)

All of these are out of 90 and are about average (or maybe above average) for pretty much everyone I’ve spoken to. As usual, I did better in the submitted essays than in the exams, but the exams are worth 50% of the grade. I was pleased with the computer programming one, which made me start wondering if I’m doing the wrong degree. Anyway, this makes my year average a 2.1, which is fine by me since this is the score I’ve gotten for everything I’ve submitted for English (with the exception of 1 First and 1 borderline First in Semester 2). Nice way to end the year I guess.

So anyway. On July 1st, the first day of the contract, I moved into my new address (68 Harold Terrace, if you’re taking notes). For the record, here’s “engcrew” (as in, English.. the subject we all do at Leeds):
L-R: Hayley, Me, Annabel & Lee.

On the 1st, just me and Hayley moved in. Lee was arriving a few days later, and Annabel wasn’t moving in fulltime till September or so, although she’d be coming up for a few days at a time over the course of the summer. I arrived about lunchtime and Hayley was already there, as she’d been in Leeds to collect the keys. My dad helped me unpack a carload of my possessions, which he helped me bring from the car to the door. I later had to carry these up two flights of stairs to my room, alone, which was, shall we say, a strenuous task. He then took me to Ikea so I could get a desk, since the one that came with my room was old and nasty. We also picked one up for Hayley, since hers too was awful. Once we got these out of the car, Dad left soon after, followed not much later by Hayley’s parents. This was it, we had our own house!

Before there was really time to settle into unpacking and stuff we had to get ready to go out. It was the day of the England vs Portugal World Cup match, and Hayley was meeting her friends from her football team to watch the game in Leeds’ Millennium Square, which had a big TV screen showing the game. I didn’t really care about the game, or indeed the World Cup itself, but since my options were either to go with Hayley, or sit in a new house alone for a few hours, I picked the social option. The game itself was alright, I got more into it than I thought I would, although the heat was oppressive. At the end, when we lost, some idiots (mostly, well, completely, drunken guys) started shouting and kicking things and getting aggressive, which is the side of football I hate. Besides that, though, it was better than I’d expected. After the game, we went back to Hayley’s friends’ new house, aka “the Football House” to check out their place. It was pretty good, bigger than ours and about the same, if a little more modern.

The rest of the first day was pretty quiet, we just ordered a pizza (no food in the house) and had some wine to break the place in. Day two was more of the same; although we got a taxi to Aldi, cheapest bulk-food store in the world, and stocked up on some basics. I made a nice lasagna for us that night, and we watched movies till we fell asleep on the couch.

Soon after that, Lee arrived to bring the numbers to three, and we had a good time with me cooking a big Chinese meal for everyone complete with nice (but expensive) crispy roast duck. We spent the next few days just getting the place organised and cleaned up, and making vague plans for the rest of the summer.

Annabel arrived for a few days in the second week, and it was nice to have us all there, although I think she felt a little isolated since the rest of us had kinda made the place our own in her absence. We got our cable/internet sorted out while she was down, and then a few days later, I left to go on holiday (see below) and Hayley left to go back to Nottingham (she lives about 3 miles away from me at home, it’s weird, we both knew the same people but not each other - she used to go to school with my last girlfriend, Naomi) to work. Poor old Lee was on his own for the whole time I was gone, besides a few visits from Annabel, but he works so wasn’t stuck in the house 24/7.

I got back to Nottingham and was, as usual, spoilt by my mum who misses me a lot when I’m away, probably because since the split, my old home is a much more female-dominated area. I guess she just appreciates me more now I’m there less. We went to see Romeo & Juliet at the theatre, which was good, and then I got packed up ready to fly to Majorca the next day with my dad and sisters.

We were flying to Majorca, an island off the south coast of Spain. I’d never flown before and was really looking forward to the experience. The flight was cool, at least, the takeoff and landing. I spent the first half hour like a child with my face glued to the window, absorbing every moment of the takeoff and taking in the sights from the plane. Although we were flying at night, as we left the UK the sun was just disappearing so the sky was a burnt orange mixed with this deep blue. When combined with the lights of the cities and the roads it was just beautiful and I wished I had a camera up there to capture it.

We arrived in Majorca around 1am local time, and walked outside to a ridiculous heat, 27C at that hour. We got a taxi to the hotel, on the other side of the island:

We drove from Palma airport all the way to Alcudia in the north-east. Dad did what became his usual taxi routine, which was to speak English to the driver in a louder-than-normal voice, slightly slower than usual, which obviously makes it easier to understand. The driver in turn spoke to Dad in Spanish, who was forced to just laugh when the driver did and hope this was enough in response. 40 or so minutes later, we’d arrived at the hotel and were being shown our rooms.

The arrival was less than epic. The rooms were crazily hot, even after we switched on the two fans. Spanish tap water is really not good to drink, but it was all we had so that made for a fun taste. Eventually we all settled down and spent a hot night in the apartment.

We spent the first few days just scouting out the area, including a memorable walk to a supermarket a few miles away, in heat which turned out to be 40C (104F) which was the hottest I’ve ever experienced. I was moody for most of the journey, partly because I was too hot to speak/move, and partly because we didn’t really know where we were going, suggesting there was no end in sight to the sweatfest that was the walk. We also checked out the beach, which was cool; Alcudia is set between all these mountains so they surrounded the beach, with white sands and very clear blue seas that were warm and nice.
The worst part of the holiday set in towards the end of the first week. My right ear began to ache, first in a merely annoying way, but this soon progressed to a stinging pain that caused a huge pressure on the side of my head that I couldn’t ignore. Friday night will go down in my mind as among the worst nights of my life. I lay awake, sweating profusely, a throbbing pain in my head that meant I could hear my heartbeat in my ear, and the noise of all the Spanish clubs opening up at 4am below the apartment, and all the Spanish people there shouting and cars driving by, revving up as much as they could. I don’t think I slept more than an hour or two, it was horrific.

The following night was worse; we’d been to get painkillers which did nothing whatsoever. At 5am, half crazy from the pain, and sick of lying awake, I went into the bathroom and began a painful experiment with a cotton wool bud down my ear to attempt to relieve some of the throbbing pressure that felt like it was being caused by trapped water. I was part successful, and stopped as soon as the pain became too much, and I was able to sleep without as much pain. In the morning there was a little blood, and the idea seemed a lot less smart, but I’m okay now, so…

For a meagre €70 (£47) the hotel’s doctor came and saw me. He looked in my ear for approximately 6 seconds and then told me it was an ear infection caused by sea water or pool water. He prescribed a range of drugs, then left. My dad, the hero, went out and picked up all the stuff he prescribed at 6PM on a Sunday, in a foreign country. He was a legend after that, he really looked after me and made sure I took all the drugs at the right times. I felt an immediate improvement after that, and after a week I felt cured. The worst part about the whole ordeal was the sensation that there was nothing I could do to alleviate the pain, a scary thought.

I was able to enjoy the holiday more then, and we spent some time watching the hotel’s entertainment squad. It was all cover acts, including a pretty good Elvis tribute act. We ended up making friends with the Robbie Williams cover guy, the best part was when he brought out his £1000 Takamine acoustic guitar he used onstage for one song (with four chords..) and got me to play. Sitting in a Spanish bar playing Oasis’s Wonderwall with a dozen Spaniards singing along is a memory I won’t forget soon, it was surreal almost. A Spanish guy asked for a go and started playing all this flamenco stuff, it was cool. Dad also did his Beatles stuff, and we were all there singing Hey Jude at 2am.
Before too long it was time to go home, which went pretty smoothly compared to the journey there (our flight was delayed 2 hours). Getting home to the nice, cool UK was wonderful, and I almost ran outside and kissed the soil when it started to rain the next day; I hadn’t seen a cloud in 2 weeks.

I spent the rest of the week in Nottingham just seeing friends and getting organised to come back to Leeds, and on Saturday I loaded up the car with more stuff (mostly my photography darkroom equipment, which I was gonna set up in the basement) and my mum took me back to the house to greet Annabel and Lee. Hayley came up too that day for a couple of days, but we hardly saw her.

I’m back for the rest of summer now, as far as I can tell, and I’m really happy up here just living a ‘real’ life (living in student halls isn’t really like anything else) and doing it on my own terms. My main priority is to get a job - I’ve been trying to since October and something’s gotta give soon. My money situation is not good and I don’t like asking my parents for handouts. I get my student loan towards the end of September, and I’m living on the edge of my budget until then. I have applications for a job at the library, a job at “Cex” (Computer Exchange, a gaming/movie shop) and I’ve put in an application for a part-time graphic design job that sounds really interesting - I hope one of these works out.

Anyway, I guess this brings us up to date! In the next few days I’ll do a picture entry with some snaps from the holiday, and a guided tour of my new house, if you’re lucky.